Creative Energy
I have been in a slump for quite sometime. I have not painted, wrote, drawn, or even read anything in a while now. I feel like I am outside myself. Somehow my energy has been sucked out of me. I feel as if my spirit is dying. I have had so much pain and loss lately I don’t even know what I feel. Not being able to connect with myself I can’t begin to express myself artistically. I feel as though I am suffering, but also that creating will ease my pain, yet I still can not pick up a pastel, a brush, a canvas anything. I have been stuck in this place and need to get out. Going back over things looking for a way to revitalize my life spirit. This is no way to live, life should be lived, not stuck. I don’t feel that internal fire burning inside me anymore and that is what hurts the most. The outside world can not hurt you when you are truly living. I need to live again. I need energy to flow through me. I need to create something, anything. Even writing this I don’t feel creative. I am just writing what I have to say, without anyone to listen. What happened to my dreams of owning my own art gallery, creating greeting cards, writing stories…where is my creative energy. Where am I?
